Day 87-120

It has been a little over a month since my last post, i apologize, but it has been quite busy! Considering all of the birthdays and halloween, my weekends have been filled with parties and my days filled with work! Because of all of the parties and stress, my weight fluctuated a lot of the last month. going up to 204 and back down to under 200lbs. Yesterday i weighed in a record low 196.4lbs! My goal for the end of the year is to be 190lbs :) if i can get there by new years, i'm going to try and lost the rest of the weight the old fashioned way and work out/eat right! If i can't get it together, i might try doing Hcg again. While Hcg was a great experience for me, i'd much rather lose it the healthy way. I think it would be much better for my body and my skin if i lost it gradually over the next 7 months or so than to drop 20-30lbs a month on hcg. I definitely am worried about lose skin and losing fat in places i don't want to lose it, like my booty. i LOVE my big booty, so i need to do some exercises regularly to keep it!
I've realized that as long as i stay within my calories, i can treat myself a little bit! I can have some chocolate from trader joes or a handful of pretzels and it helps my weight because it throws off my diet and changes things up! I am a little worried about the upcoming thanksgiving and christmas feasts, however, i think i can handle it. What i've been doing when i've been partying or having big meals is, i enjoy what i have but try not to go over the top and over splurge and then the next week i eat really well to balance my diet back out! Of course, sometimes things come up and i don't stay as strict as i should be, but just because you screw up a little bit doesn't mean the whole day is wasted! So you ate a slice of cake, its okay! Drink a lot of water, have a apple for a snack later if you need it and get some good rest that night. It wont effect you!
The problem with most people, like my good friend Liane or me a few months ago, is when you over indulge you figure, oh well i screwed up! might as well eat what i want! NO! thats where it all falls apart! If you eat something you shouldn't or you eat too much, its okay, but then stop! tell yourself no and take charge of your mouth. dieting is completely mental! if you can control your thoughts and cravings, you can stay on your diet through anything. and what i've learned this past month is indulging in a little bit of chocolate or something "bad" like that, helps you stay on your diet because you don't feel deprived! it's helped me a lot. and i hope some of this advice helps you too! xo

I'll keep you updated!
Lady C